I've been having a really hard time these last couple of days. Just can't stop crying. Steven goes back to work tomorrow & I think that has lead to some of my tears....I'm going to miss having him here with me. He has been right by my side crying with me...and sharing moments of laughter, remembering our precious lil' boy.
This morning we went outside to have our coffee. I sat next to one of our penta plants. It was beautiful out. Tears just kept falling. Suddenly a beautiful monarch butterfly landed on one of the flowers. He hopped around from flower to flower for about 15 mins...never leaving my side. We chatted for a while...I was telling him how beautiful & perfect he was. Then he started flying in circles around me then flew off as I stopped crying. I had my hand laying flat on my chair & a small butterfly landed on the palm of my hand. It stayed there for about 5 mins & we chatted too. I wondered who had come to visit. Was it one of Caleb's friends or family members coming to let me know he is ok? I'm going to believe that it was :) Then I started crying again as it flew away. Suddenly the monarch appeared again next to me in the penta plant. We sat a lil' longer ...now daddy & I were both crying....but tears filled with some joy. We believe Caleb is around us always.....our hearts still hurt to not be able to hold him..but God sends us lil' gifts that bring us a touch of happiness. Love you so much Caleb...can't wait to see what tomorrow brings.
These pictures are from his Celebration flowers I took today...wish I could keep them forever...they were so beautifully done.