Saturday, December 31, 2011

Remembering 2011

We had a good night having a picnic in the middle of the living room, watching Gomer Pyle movies and then lighting off some fireworks.  Daddy bought a bunch of fireworks to make this New Years extra special for Devin...the whole night was just for him...whatever he wanted to do.  Corey was visiting with his mother this New Years.  Wish he was able to be here with us, but we can do it again next year :)

It seemed like it was just yesterday that we were celebrating New with our Caleb.  It's hard to imagine that he has been gone for 4 months.  Caleb was so missed this holiday season...but then again he is missed everyday.  Not a moment goes by that he isn't thought of.  I have heard from many people that they wish me a better year this year.  And I know that they say this because they care for us and want the best for our family.  But I truly loved last year.  Even with Caleb passing away.  There were so many wonderful moments.  He celebrated his 2nd birthday, we went on vacations, we took walks, snuggled, and just spent time loving and laughing with each other.  I wouldn't trade one moment.  And even during his last moments on this earth, as I laid my hand on his chest feeling every breath he took...I wouldn't wish that moment to go away...I'd do anything to have that moment have that last nap.  We cherished every moment and even through the heartache, we had many blessings, many memories, so much happiness.  May God Bless all my family and friends, keeping their families safe, healthy and blessing them with wonderful memories to last a lifetime.  Cherish each moment, they are too precious.  Happy New Year!!

Saturday, December 24, 2011

Christmas Eve...missing our sweet Caleb

Today has been a very tough day.  I think it has really hit me that Caleb won't be here with us this Christmas.  I just couldn't stop crying.  We went to Christmas Eve service at church.  I couldn't breathe.  I remember Caleb moving to the music last year...doing his very best Stevie Wonder.  I loved sharing these beautiful moments with Caleb, with our family, with our friends.  I cried through the whole service, but that was ok, because I was surrounded by so many people who care for us & love us.  They have walked beside us in our journey.  We are so Blessed with the gift of family and amazing friendships.  There are so many heavy hearts this season.  So many lil' ones gone too soon. I pray for all these beautiful families.  God Bless you all......