Saturday, October 8, 2011

My first dream of Caleb....

Last night I had a horrible nightmare...I kept screaming "no" & hugging Steven. I don't remember what it was about but Steven said it lasted a while. I do remember the feeling of panic. I fell back to sleep. Then in the morning I had another dream...this time I remember so vividly our sweet baby Caleb. He was smiling soooo big & sitting on daddy's lap...but he was breathing hard & could see his chest pulling with each breath. I felt like he was saying to me that he was alright. His big smiles always gave me so much hope that everything would be ok. He was absolutely perfect to me...I never focused on his ailments....always celebrated his achievements & milestones. But he did have some issues & he was reminding me of that....that he put up such a great fight. He did so well & overcame things that just amazed me. But now he can rest & I have to find comfort...peace in that somehow. We are so proud of him & love him so very much. I know satan is trying to steal my peace & fill me with doubts & saddness. I won't let him do it....I will fight, my son taught me how :)


  1. You are an amazing mommy! I started following Caleb's journey since learning about him mid August. I fell in love with him, how could I not, he was absolutely beautiful! I think about your family and pray for you guys. I have cried so many tears reading this blog, what an amazing boy...

  2. Your son was and still is amazing. I pray for you daily and pray that Caleb sends you the signs that you need to get through each day. Thank you for sharing your life with the world.

    Lots of love and prayers being sent your way from Blacksburg, SC.
    *God is Good*

    Ginger Owens