Christmas is only a couple of days away. It is getting here way too fast. I am so excited, yet sad too. As I shop for presents for Caleb, or driving around looking at Christmas lights...I'm overwhelmed with so much happiness. I am also overcome with the feeling of saddness because I wonder if this will be the last year I can do this. I want so badly to hold on to this moment...to cherish every second. The boys are so excited and I love seeing them smile....especially when they are with Caleb. I pray we have many more Christmas', many more days to cherish the blessings God has given us. I love my family and the moments we have together....I guess I'm a little bit selfish because I want more time...more tomorrows. But I also thank God for every moment.....these are the moments we never thought we would have.